Women are sensitive creatures. I’ve been feeling a little down the last couple of days, and when I get like that, I tend to isolate myself. I don’t want to talk much, preferring to be alone. I usually get over my mood after a spell, but for the time that I feel that way, I can come across as cold or unsociable. It’s just one of the many bad habits that I have.
My fiancé and I are not together (otherwise I would say my wife
and I). She’s in Peshawar and I’m in Islamabad, and for the last 8 months, we have maintained our relationship over the sms’s and phone calls. It’s not easy, but we make it work. We have our rough spots, and I’m certain its because of the nature of our relationship right now. An sms can’t tell you how you’re feeling. It doesn’t carry the tone or weight of your voice. It doesn’t replace a laugh, a smile, a kiss or a hug. So when I felt down, I didn’t sms her as often as she would have liked, something to which she took exception. She send me a few angry sms’s telling me I was ignoring her and that she resented it. I, being unsociable, didn’t feel very motivated to defend myself and gave up after a few half-hearted sms’s.
She’s been angry since yesterday. She got even more withdrawn today because I was supposed to call her tonight (on the land-line) and talk to her for about an hour. I didn’t do that, because of my crappy mood.
I’m thinking of starting tahajjud prayers soon. I need some food for the soul to pre-empt these dark moody spells of mine.