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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
  Going Cold Turkey
Today was marked by long breaks occasionally interrupted by short intense bursts of furious, guilt-ridden studying. I didn't get that much done today and I kind of feel bad about it. Heck, I feel like a big loser.

Ah, the theme never seems to change around here does it? Is it just me or do I go on about how terrible my studies are a bit too much? I figured that if I embarrass myself by telling you what a loser I am, it might shame me into taking some action the next time around. This tactic hasn't worked out too well for me so far. However, I am glad to report that I've managed at least to rid myself, hopefully permanently, of various causes of my dithering ways. One major cause was the persistent notion that I might still make it as a writer if I set my mind to it (now). I managed to firmly rid myself of this idea by telling myself that I'm very young, with lots of life yet (Inshallah) and will get a chance to do it all, but that for now I've got to have the stubbornness and persistence of a donkey and be single-minded about just one thing: the Steps. Things have also perked up with the start of the pharmacology video lectures. The lecturer is Dr. Anthony Trevor, a fine teacher - far better than the hopelessly boring Dr. Lionel of biochemistry.

Yet I've come to realize another problem. It seems I'm somewhat of an internet addict.

There, I said it. It's out in the open. Hello everyone, my name is DrPak, and I'm *choke* an internetholic. I find myself working quite contentedly at pharmacology, when suddenly I think: Hey, let's check my mail! Hey, let's see what's on google news! Hey, wonder if Firefox has a extension for … And one thing leads to another, and before I know it, I'm deeply engrossed in something I had no intension of looking up when I started.

I'm thinking of unplugging the LAN cable that hooks me up to the server computer in our house. I'll cut off my net connection while I'm studying and put it back in only at the end of my day. I guess I could easily plug it back in when the temptation strikes, but I'm thinking that the inconvenience of getting under the table and fumbling with the wires to do something wholly unnecessary might break the hypnotizing spell of the net. God knows, with my super-customized Firefox, it's amazingly easy to get to exactly where I need to go. It just takes a click or two and I'm flooded with distractions. Every time I'm tempted to check my mail, or do something equally useless, I'll just tell myself I don't really need to and my that future is more important…

Inshallah, I'll weed all my bad habits out one by one.
Hola from another self-proclaimed internetholic!!
My advice...get disciplined to surfing/checking mail etc for only a couple of hours at the max,everyday!!!!...i know...easier said than done...but you HAVE to(from experience...it is self destructive!)!!...study hard...you can so do it in five months(inshAllah!)...
Yeah, it's a pernicious habit indeed. I didn't even realise how much time I'm wasting having the net plugged in 24/7. I'm going to take the plug out tomorrow before I begin work and resist the temptation to plug it back until the end of my day.
Similar problems here. But i have managed to restrict myself. One thing i found useful was distract myself by reading a book or something instead of going and surfing the net. This breaks the addiction. Then gradually we can let go of the book.
Unplugging the LAN i think wouldn't help. Since you will waste more time thinking about plugging it back.
And thanx a bunch man for the offer on CDs. I have actually already asked a friend coming from states to get me the set. I hope he will be here by the end of this month. If i get them before you do i will make a copy for you instead if your doesnt come through that is (hopefully that will not be the case inshaAllah). But thanks again for the offer man.
I need drastic measures....unplugging say mera kaam nahi chalay ga!!!!!!
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Recent med school graduate from Peshawar, Pakistan. Started blogging when in throes of final year exams. Currently studying for USMLE Step 1. Aiming for the 2008 Match. I blog about my studies, my worries, and my thoughts on life. I live in Islamabad.

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